Smile - Does it say it all ??

Life has changed since last time I wrote ..but then this blog is not about that .. it is about something more complicated.. about smiles !!

Just the other day I was on a walk in my apartment complex and saw an elderly man walk by giving me most precious smile .. but still there was something in his smile , something missing .. somehow the smile didn't reach his eyes ..there was just emptiness in his eyes .

This led me thinking what is behind each smile .. does a smile mean something more .. or is it hiding something within ..

Smile to a passer-by or a friend could mean I am lonely within .. are you really my friend if yes why can't you see the loneliness I have hidden deep inside my heart .I have people in my life some who even love me or are fond of me then why do I feel so alone in this big wide world .

Smile to someone you hate but conceal it for social purposes .. does it say I want to see you suffer but not now .. now I am too busy pretending to like you ..

Or the smile boss gives you once you are back from a vacation .. does it mean all that time you were out vacationing I was somehow keeping the ship afloat , I have lost precious family time and will ensure in coming weeks you work your ass off ..

Or that smile mother in laws give on the reception stage during marriage while posing for family picture ... does it mean wait and watch .You will never be able to win my son's heart or have my place in it .
 
Or that timid smile by daughter in law on first day which pleads that don't hate me just yet give me a chance to win your heart .

Smile well there are many and can mean a lot most important is the thoughts behind those smile ..

Formulating happiness

Over the years I have tried in vain to formulate happiness , I am aware of the fact that it is not quantifiable but then I always wonder how is one happier than other . Surely there has to be a formula for happiness , being an engineer I wanted to develop some kind of relation of various factors of life to happiness , to be able to derive some sort of relation of happiness to other aspects of life .
So on a recent evening with my friends I asked them what did they think affected the amount of happiness in our life ...
Most of them thought it was money .. some even had the atrocity of saying "Money can buy happiness" . Days after that evening my mind kept going round and round on that topic but it was one rainy evening that I got my answer . I was stuck in a mile long traffic jam with heavy rain pour thinking 'Now this is great I finally get out of office on time and here I am stuck in traffic ' while my mind was busy creating my usual day to day to do list , I saw two woman come out of an IT company , they looked like cleaners or maid .They had no umbrella and were completely drenched , they casually lifted there sarees upto knees and with childlike delight and glee on there face crossed the road with complete ease . Just looking at them I could feel the happiness they did , as they crossed their road my gaze followed them but soon moved to a woman dressed in business suit with a Nautica umbrella , high heels and laptop bag . She looked like a top executive from one of the neighbouring IT company , a woman who had everything in control and obviously flourishing financially . Although her complete personality resonated elegance her face showed irritation and anger on the sudden downpour . She looked unhappy with the unannounced rain and looked very impatient until finally she got into her chauffer driven car . The contrasting reaction of two woman both from different streams of life gave me the answer money can definitely not buy us happiness . It may be able to provide for our basic amenties or luxuries but it can takes away a lot in return . It snatches away our capability to enjoy in the natural joys of life , it does gives us a taste of finer things in life but also deprives us to feel the childlike joy which is priceless .

So coming back to my question "What are factors that affect happiness ? "

Introduction to blogging ....

Why blogging ??? Well I wanted to place to pen down my thoughts as it seems my mind is full of opinions ,full of feeling and foolish sentiments about everything I see ,  I hear , I taste , I touch , I smell . I want to make this a medium to express and reveal whats on my mind . Its not like a personal diary but the world from my eyes .. Now the question arises who am I ..

I am still searching for an answer for that question .. lets find out ...

Love
Supriya